What a year! I think everything that could possibly happen, happened. Literally. The start of the year was a bit rocky; finances were not all that good, my vehicle ran on fumes, father was laid off, amongst other unfortunate situations. Despite the negative, I held on to all the positive vibes the universe unearthed for me.
I really thought I had it going on. I thought I had control of my life.
Then, God came through.
You see, God has been my first priority. No doubt, He comes first. However, I was trying to set up my own course. AGAIN! As if, I did not learn my lesson the first time.
God was guiding me; I was rebelling.
I am a rebel by nature, an alpha female by birthright, and one stubborn girl. He made me in His image, therefore, He knows the depth of who I am.
“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” (Isaiah 30:21)
Thank you, Jesus, for your grace, love, and mercy.
Yes, my significant other and I parted ways, my dad is in another country, and I am an immigrant and so on and so on. My God is greater than all of it. I was placing so much hope in my significant other, that I lost a little sense of God’s greatness. We had been together since I was nineteen and we loved each other, so it was easy to think that marriage was the end goal. It would have opened the door to citizenship faster, since congress has TPS applicants on the verge of a yes or no. It just seemed so right to me. However, it did not feel right. God intervened. God gives and takes away. To many of us, like myself, feel like the good things are taken away, but that is a deception from the enemy. He did it for me because He knew I would trust Him less if I got my way. 
You see, my dad is another country. I am not able to travel. But yet, God made a way when I was not able to make one for myself! God made a way! Prayer does work. There is power in the name of Jesus, I tell you. 
I was heartbroken, sad, and angry, and yet, I was embraced in love and peace. Jesus saved me from my own tyranny. While gathering the pieces of my heartbreak, I was consoled, mended, and made whole. In the midst of my pain and sadness, I found my joy. While fighting the torments of anger, I found forgivingness. I found myself at the feet of Jesus. Many might think it to be a cliché or unreal or a joke, but God does part the sea for His people.
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I have a new car. I received a raise at both of my jobs. A door opened to work with kids at a school. All bills are paid with a little extra. My credit score is looking good. I graduated. I am still documented. I have traveled to Denver. Drove to Austin. Road trip from Texas through New Mexico to Arizona and back again. My friends are getting to know Jesus. My family is united. We have health. I am happy. I have peace. And wait for it, I was able to travel to my homeland, Honduras. Only God can stunt that way!
The first part of the year, I felt as if I had lost. Because of my losses, I have gained a faith that moves mountains. My God is able!!
2019, I am officially letting you go!
2020 here we come!
And I am not alone. It's me,
And I am not alone. It's me,
God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.